Better

I am tired of being the victim
Time to take control of the wheel
Do somethings that would make
Janet blush and put Lenny on hush
Dominant from start
Blazing the path
Pulling you along
Whether you want to or not
You have no choice
Because you are the one caught up
Too scared to stop
Not knowing where the road may lead
I have my fun with you
How would you like the role reversal
Me free of emotion
You full of it
Instead of your usual bull
I laugh at the thought of that
Better be glad
I am too good for that

But I Hesitate

It has been a while
Since the beginning
Never even imagined this being a possibility
But now that I am here
I yearn for more
Hope changed to a dream
A dream to a probability
A probability to now
This present was a pleasant surprise
Offerings of love, respect and longevity
Words I have always longed to hear
Something though
Something makes me rethink it all
So I hesitate to make a commitment
No one is on the side
At least on my end
What is my reasoning, you ask
Nothing other than this feeling
Pleading with me to
Stop

My Need

My heart needs
My body needs
My soul needs
And you are not available
My need now is to move on

Values

What happened to us
We should not be at the state we are in
Disapproval of what is just
Placing more energy into
Things that do not mean
Anything
Knocking down people that ask you
To live by human morals
All you see is the external covering
How much that makes us different
From all others that walk in shoes
Trying to reverse laws to make things
Separate again
I do not understand
I come from but by favor, grace and mercy
I am not a product of
That ridiculous mentality
Call me stuck up while I succeed
I improve the people that
Want to change
Values

Reflect

Where to begin
I guess I should start
At the beginning
But I will start
At the end
So much pain is there
So back to the beginning
But that is all a blur
Maybe the middle
But the middle was the beginning
Of the end
The relationship seems like
It was all a waste
What did I learn
I learned from each and every
Mistake

Superpeople

When will I find the one
That understands all that I do
Now let me say this
I am not perfect
I get many things wrong
You may not believe I am human
I do have this "S" on my chest
But I have more than one kryptonite
This though is about you
And all those like you
That step to us superpeople
Playing games, wasting time
Only prolonging the inevitable
When we are on your planet
We must turnoff our
Super-ears, super-sight, super-speed and much more
Just to appease egos
Why do we learn this lesson the hard way
That red kryptonite is the worst
Fly far away and fast

Amorous Intentions

And how was I supposed to know
How you felt
Did you ever say anything about it
This was new
With no definition
It is not like we spoke about anything beyond superficial
But whenever we did
I liked what I heard
And wanted to hear more
Wasn't sure if I was falling or not
I had to figure out what to do
Should I tell you or let it go
Continue on with the current flow
Contemplating taking the risk
I like being forward
Either be honest or say nothing
So I decided to tell you
Took you to a neutral zone
Tried to turn small talk to something serious
But the reactions lead me to play it off
Maybe you knew what was ahead
Or maybe afraid to hear what you thought I would say
Just wanted to be real
No pressure
But I just had to tell you
And now that I haven't
I wonder what would have happened if I had

I Say To You

I am well versed
Not because it is rehearsed
But because I have been tried
Time and again
Through those times, tests and trials
I have gained
Strength, courage and wisdom
Growth
So I encourage you to press
Onward, upward and forward
Because the Good Book says
Do not become weary in well doing

Joy

I wear yellow today
Because I am happy
Death finally came
And I buried you
No, I am not morbid
I had to put that to rest
The old me is gone

Afloat

Why can't I fly away
Why can't I go away
This place
Why do I feel trapped here
Struggling to stay afloat
Looking for the life boat
Looking for the life
Here

Stunts and Shows

Life is all just a show
Even with you
I expected more
That's what you told me
I believed all the stories
Never again, will I be that naivee
Time tells the truth
You put on a face each night
Getting ready for your performance
I watched
Not knowing that I wasn't in the audience
I was apart of the act
Stunting on me
Like I was one of the hoes
Could this really be me
Living for the moment
Tricked into something that
I said I would never do
Trusting in this sense, is new
I learned my lesson

Response

I come to you in your confusion
I come to you out of respect
I come to you with a different mindset
You look at me with disdain
As I walk through your hood
As I walk through your church
As I sit at your table
Diversity scares so many
Although it is preached so often
Why do you let fear overtake you
Why do you seek to push me away
What if I hold the answers you need
What if I have the cure to your illness
You judge my external while I do no wrong
You judge my actions that cause no harm
I am glad that I don't treat you like you treat me
I accept that you may not understand me
But I ask that you, judge not

And You Are

Frustration settles in my soul
Seeing people that succeed with no souls
You have direction that redirects like the wind
Silly women, silly men
While people of purpose fail
People with respect trail the pack
You blend instead of standing out
Would not know what is right
From the fallacy presented on reality TV
You made it but for what
And you are quite foolish
Missing the clown makeup
Frustration re-fires in my soul
Grow up, grown up
Peep real game and emulate
Because the game you push is a disgrace
You don't know much
Information lacking
Class-less and attacking me
Silly women, silly men
Replace, upgrade, maintain

Affection

Anticipating our rendevouz
Expecting it to be a tryst
Since the last time had been a while
Didn't want to jump right into it
I did miss your presence too
We did our usual
Catch up, laugh up, cuddle up
Oh how I missed this
Could do just this each and every day
What happened to the tryst
I am content though
Just laying here with you
In our own little world
You make me feel so comfortable
And I hope I do the same for you
As you carress my hand
I try not to drift to my dreams
Enjoying our time together
It's getting late so I need to be ready
For the next day of work
You walk me to the door
We part with some kisses
And as I sit in my car
I can only wonder
What happened to the tryst
Am I the only one
Or maybe intimacy is enough