In Sight or A Dream

Freedom
It is in sight
Right around the bend
More than what I ever dreamed
Today though I am not dreaming
I am stuck in place
Stagnant in life
Unhappy although grateful for my blessings
Although many feel that you cannot be both
Working to live
Check to check
I make due
Hoping to have better dreams
New dreams that will make my old dreams
So common that they become reality

State Of Love

Can't sleep
Unsettled
Staring at you
Looking comfortable
Probably dreaming about something selfish
How did I get here
Not physically but mentally
Lying next to a stranger
We were good at a time
Good for each other
Love resided in our home
Memories and time passed
Laughs and conversation and sex
Took place
I did not see this coming
Unsure of where the turning point was
Downward is the direction though
Because I have not slept well for months
While you say you are more rested than ever
That does not ease my worry
How did I get here

Tell Him

Tell him what he is doing wrong
Explain why he is alone
Why he never had a relationship
The reasoning behind love's absent
Role in his life
Scrutinize his efforts for perfection
His language proper
Clothing fresh and neat
Open mind and accepting heart
Adventurous, respectable and courteous
How none of these things have worked
How people took advantage of his kindness
Tried to make him weak
Nevertheless he still seeks real love
Still wants real love
Tell him what he is doing wrong
Explain why he is alone

I Miss You, You Say

Funny almost
Amusing when
You say
Each time I reach out to you
That you miss me also
Of course after I said I did
It would be unkind
To do anything else
You would not blatantly hurt me
That is one thing I know
For sure
What I do not know is
How someone that misses something
Never does anything to show
That to be true
If I waited on you to contact me
I would be buried before you did
Do not save my heart from real pain
The wait time kills me anyway
Set me free since I cannot do it myself
Make me leave at least
That shows you did care

Along The Path to Love

Love is a journey
That no one knows but
Everyone remembers
I am now on that path
Took the detour
Down the one way street
Full of bumps, bruises
Little light and much confusion
I was once in a state of bliss
Before I saw the sign
The sign that said love
Was ten miles ahead
Gave me time to contemplate
Whether or not
I did
I will persevere
Something tells me
It will be worth the trek
This journey to love

Jazmine Sullivan

I know that I usually just post my poetry. (Thank you for anyone that has ever read any of my work and I hope that it was inspirational and thought provoking.) But I had to let you all know of a perfectly amazing cd "Fearless" by Jazmine Sullivan. If you love R&B and like music that you will not hear on the radio thirty times a day, then I suggest you PURCHASE her cd pronto!!!! You will not be dissappointed. My favorites are the phenomenal "Lions, Tigers and Bears", the moving "Live A Lie" and the truth "Bust Your Windows".

Future Love

Pleasant dreams
At night
Constant daydreams
I have
My perfection
My perfect mate
Flawless to me
I envision you
Come to me
Become real
So my fantasies can be fulfilled
No white horse or glass slipper
Necessary just
Pure and unadulterated
Honesty
Future love for me

Sneak Peek

Thanks for the sneak peek
Into what a great relationship
Would look like
I had no clue
That it would even be possible
For me to achieve
But now because of you
I know I can
Give my one hundred percent
Waiting for the one
That gives me the same return

This Heart Of Mine

Say what you will
About the way I act
Guarding my heart
From the cruel world
Protecting myself is necessary
No one else is here to do it
This heart of mine
Is the only one I have
Safeguard under lock and hidden key
This is my heart
I rather not share it with you
Too valuable to me
Although the local society benefits
From this heart of mine
One on one though
I will not do
Because this heart of mine
Cannot be used
Torn or abused
So call me selfish
With my heart
But mine it will stay

But This Train

Rolling my bags down the path
At a fast and steady pace
I head towards
My acceptable mode of transportation
Not far behind me
We at least not in physical distance
Are you running after me
Pleading for one more chance
To make it right
Like you said it would be from the start
I pause for a second only in my mind
To think about us
The potential I saw
The good times, the promises
The whistle blows for the final boarding call
I hand my luggage to the attendant
And glance at you in mid stride
Wishing you put this much energy in
Us before now
I value my time and you knew it
Yet you refused to make a commitment
The excuse of a busy agenda
Only lasts for so long
I told you my goals
Told you that I am a stress reliever
Said the honest truth
Even when it hurt me
Not saying that you did anything wrong
But timing plays a huge role
In where I am now
Sitting in the b-class seat
On the 12 o'clock to the City
And you running by my window
With regret and sadness on your face
Beautiful you are
Inside and out
I will miss you
But this train is departing
And you should be beside me
In the seat that is paid for
That my laptop now occupies
Valuable me
Valuable time
I bid you adieu

Miscellaneous Facade

The time has come
For me to break this down
For those that seem not to understand
The providers for unappreciative supportees
Not matter what they do for you
It is not enough
I view the stress you have
On your face and in your hands
I hear the frustrations
I do not sympathize
Is loneliness that scary
That we allow people to use
Miscellaneous facades
As gateways to our resources
Do we believe the lies
Seek comfort in them
Because reality hurts us so
Strengthen your heart
Open your mind
Let go of unnecessary baggage
Trust and believe

Had Green Eyes

Just passed by you
Now laughing to myself
You disguise your look as
Disdain but you cannot
Change the color of those eyes
The window to your soul
Greener than dew drinched grass in May
How could you look at me that way
You hardly know me
I know that I am impressive
You could be also if you really tried
I place my heart into improvement
Internal and external
Maybe that shows and you are mad
At yourself for not doing your best
But it would behoove you
To see my example and raise your standards
Not hating on me with
Looks and words
Wise people live and learn
Others are irrelevant

Weak

Tired
I have been good for so long
Maybe I should let this
Other side out for a while
Get into somethings
That would be considered
Bad
Thoughts may overtake me
Persuade me
Contemplating the dark side
Making money with my body
Playing tricks just to get ahead
So many do it
They all benefit
Temporarily
Maybe since I look at the long term
I know I cannot do
Those things
They are very tempting though

Anew

Reinvent
Refresh
Away with the old
Need a vacation
Must do something
A new look
Nothing too drastic
Just enough to feel
New, renewed
Fresh
Wanting to replace my regular stares
With double takes
Bold enough to do it
Complete overhaul
Be prepared
It may be too much for most
But maybe it will peak
The right one's interest
Next up
Me anew