Complicated

I want to know what say and where to go
How to get my point across
Reveal my feelings
This is not going to be easy
I want to be more
Maybe not your everything
But someone to share part of my world
And part of yours to be shared with me
The land of No Definition
Is tricky
No definition means no boundaries
And without those
How do I know how to act
Solely on instincts or should I be more calculated
This is unchartered territory for me
So I have no map
I want to get it right
Because of differences make it interesting
I wish you saw it like I do
And how much I want to
Know

The Corner

If you fail me now
What will I do
Change to someone desperate
Out of pure hurt and despair or
Rebel against you and the machine
What does someone like me do
When backed into a corner
Fight to conquer or fight for flight
Either way
A battle must ensue
So take up your swords
For now is the time
Daylight approaches
And I await
Your choice
So that I can choose mine

This One's For You

Honestly, he wasn't right for you
You want me to tell the truth
He wasn't that into you
He never called you beautiful
Or made his lies believable
He didn't care if you knew
This breakup was way past due
Now you are calling me on the phone
Trying to understand what went wrong
But you just were too blind to see
I stayed out of your relationship
Although it was hard to see you hurt
I hoped that you would grow from this
So you could find a new relationship
One that would work

Today

Haven't felt this good
In a long time
And I would say
It is a long time coming
Feelings of joy
Trump all the pain
Forgetting the past
Embracing the present
And smiling at my future

The Laughs, The Words, The Attention

I heard the conversation
And had to compare
The laughs, the words, the attention
Until it was all too much
Feeling hurt, I had to explain the mistake
More mad than I expected
Blaming myself for not seeing what was evident
Blaming myself for allowing this to happen
I am worth more than just
Another notch on your belt
And more than someone just to pass by time with
I believed that was how you felt about me
But how much more wrong could I be

Notice

You doubted my every move
Thought I had nothing to give
Wished for my demise
Plotted my destruction
Counted me down and out
But today as I smell success
Staring at my infinite possibilities
Assured that positive things are around the corner
And knowledgeable of God's grace & favor
I speak a firm notice to you
To stay out of my way
Get behind me and
Watch as I shine

I Can't Believe

Who would have thought
I would be waiting
For a phone call
Anticipating your voice
Strong, assertive
Confidence exudes from every pore
So much so that I can't deny what I feel
But I can't believe
This is me now
After all
No one thought I was worthy of something amazing
Even if you are not that
You have renewed my hope
And I thank you for that